Love Spaz

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore.

 Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ” Maybe we should be just friends ” turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Once Upon a Time

Once Upon a Time

By Antonio De Villar Once upon a time, there was love in my life— it was you. I was happy; you made me feel free. But I took you for granted and let you go, believing there was something better out there for me. Oh, how foolish I was, defined by my own greed, searching for you in strangers’ faces, only to meet disappointment. I was happy— once upon a time. I had love, a clear picture, a place I called home. Now I wonder, will I ever find my place? Sometimes I feel sad, and only God knows why. My bed is cold at night— only tears lie beside me. I don’t know how I made it this far, but looking back at my journey, I see a deeper meaning. Something special awaits. Someday, I’ll find myself again— feel the wind breathe life into me, and rejoice in the feeling of a new beginning in a place all my own.